Wednesday, December 29, 2010

a long wait...

empty cubicle , haunting walls , lazy face book , a job of uncertainty , an empty wallet , tempting cigarettes , sleepy eyes , nothing to look forward.

when the worse is expected , "god sure did work in his usual mysterious way"...

there comes a glow , a radiant glow , a sight my unworthy eyes could withstand no more...

truly the Maker is a master of creation , gliding as adrift , a gesture that made my 32 worthless...

a protrude that made every sight in me all these years sinful...

a decibel that literally silenced every other in my world...

a blissful curve that started making things right...

lengths that made my bald a forbidden no mans land...

if only i could kiss the hand of the Maker... amazed at His exhibition of 2 extreme creations , me and the angel in front of me...

A perfect moment for time to stall... No other moment could parallel...

Enlightenment , is this it...

This is my handmade gift from the Maker , made just for me rest assured.

Made me shun my petty life , revolted me to a Kingsley levitation...

Made cloud 9 cover his face , scoffed at every other best...

Coz the Maker gave me the best , He gave it with Love , to be loved and to love...

and HE named it "*********"

only the worthy can see the name , he he he

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Neutral

Those idiots , including me who always were proud of being neutral to many issues and aspects of life , mark my words , u r going no where. Today’s world , compliments to me and my fellow beings , we have all complicated it so much that we have endangered our very existence.

The reason why I chose to go silent was to avoid un wanted instances where we may have to resort to verbal abuse or physical.. But now a days the truth is , there is no use being dormant , one day or the other , each one has to break the shell and come out with his wits. Else someone else is going to dominate you and in a way you can never withstand. Might as well finish off at the first instance.

There is no point in waiting for a chance in the future. Grab it the moment it provides itself to you , else your are a failure. You need your voice and you need your guts to stand up the present situation of absolute chaos , else you will regret the very next moment. Thanks to the present scenario where we have un known miscreants entering our daily lives. We turn subtle so that it wouldn’t affect our personal lives. What we forget and what they also forget is they also have a life , attack it , finish it if necessary.

No more room for showing the other cheek , if u realize u r to sacrifice one cheek , be ready to rip both of his. Else it worthy if u perish away rather than walking this earth in dismay. There is no one today ready to spare a minute of their busy schedule even if u r in your death bed. Time has come where people wait to the last chance to postpone a visit to you until the last moment of excuse.

How , how could things happen in such a complex destination. Simple , for every new human friendly or so called friendly invention , there are rules bound to it , made by a bunch of losers who care nothing about common man. You man have no one else but urselves to worry and think about you. You may have all witnessed a time of absolute solitude.

Where this is going to end , is as simple as your death bead , keep in mind even there you are not set free… The mystery continues …

gods must be crazy....

ha ha ha... i begin this laughin at myself...

the deciding factor of any country... the middle class... eh... when to gods created man , the created man and woman... and for fun sake , the created those inbetween... y ... they wanted to experiment what will happen...

so is the life of a middle class being... all experiments on u... anyone can use u , anyone can trial u , anyone can kill u... but nothing wil happen to those who destroy us... the high class can pervail for ever , the poor have the sentiments... what about the majority ... what about us...

look at ur middle class life... every day of ur life is a struggle... ur job , ur family , ur friends , ur enemies , ur emplyers , ur society , no one bothers about u... as long as u pay up ur commitments u r free... but still the trial is always on u... what do we have to defend ourselves... the least u can do is sit online on ur computer and blog... and who is reading it... ur fellow beings who suffer equivalent or more than u....

cursed are we middle class families... we are good for nothing.... biting our teeth , clenching our fists we ve always taken everything that comes are way , and we stop at a point , where we think we r futile... there will be no change for this situation... no one cares about us... no one will ever...

then what do we do... the major population that decides and takes in all crap of daily life... are we sure our family members are safe everytime they go out... are secure about our hard earned wealth... are we even recognised for our works to the society... are we happy at the end of any day in life... do we live in peace... do we have any represenatative...

keep in mind....we are like experimental rats in a laboratory... as long as we lvie , we are of worth... but on the day of test... not even us nor the one who does it knows if we will survive or not... and here we are still ready to volunteer... why , coz our limbs are cut off... our thoughts are cut off... our voices are dried out... there would be no one... but no matter what , this sect of life will continue for ever...

i am sure tho u plan for ur kids , u know it for sure its a 50 - 50 chance... so what do we do... how do we secure ourselves... how do we show our presence... how do we prove our existence as not just material but as human life forms.... what do we do...

simple... struggle everyday , think u ve it all and go to sleep... we will never change... or like in the movie "ten commandments"... it would take more than a man , but a God to save us... sad , sad , very sad is our lives...

u call it life eh...

be it the church... or the hindu scriptures... or the insight of mohammad...

we are all told by some force or the other we choose to be our guiding light , how to live life...

crap... all they say is love and forgive... for the bloody complexity today that man lives... how tolerant can one be... how tolerant... enough to jus wait and see the end of the line expecting miracles , but losing dignity , respect and loved ones for the sake so called man made pressures..

how long is this going to be... how many times do we jus budge to things happenin around us.. how many times do we compromise in a day... is this the promised life in each religion.. atheists stay away , i have another theory for u...

life was meant to be happy ... u love and u get loved... thats what life was about... when did killing and cheating become a reason for living... how could one accept it as a reason for living... believe... a common man also today resorts to killing and other sins... y ... for one reason... he needs to survive... he could be all means finish off his enemies and walk away... but as long as there is a quotient called family... even a single member... remember how much a risk are we taking...

But is the risk worth it... some way or the other , the political system comes into play with every man... dont ever give that excuse , i dont vote i dont care... keep in mind... they are all over u... they can come anytime... any way... pathetic i say... sad is the life of a commoner... where we decide the government and we still get kicked out.. .

how long will we go through this... tho people realize this... even if we form a group that would lead the elections... am sure we would also be corrupt...

BUT
THERE IS HOPE...

read the lines... "FOR THE PEOPLE , BY THE PEOPLE" thats enuf...

recollect one instant in ur life where the government has let u down... believe me... all of us have one... now tell me , can we form something worthwhile...

when the world is talkin about saving indian tigers , haiti , tsunami , and other criterias .... think about the basic value of human living... anyone thinking , what we can do...

this should be the beginning... we can do something... i BELIEVE we can... start it...

Saturday, February 13, 2010

dream... thats ur only haven...

when random thinking , makes you take your time... something that most of us... though we do not realize it... our idle minds are so easily carried away... with no rules.. with no borders... with no expectations... with no conclusions... but we still love it...

why coz ... its just our imaginations... its true we can imagine what ever we want... about anything , anyone... but its a trillion times restricted when it comes to reality...

while we imagine , we can do it any way , forget our own initiated imaginations , true all our imaginations have a wee little to what we think on purpose... but when we do so in reality , u know how much we curse our selves and our mind which always keeps suggesting in the negative...

every time we want to do something... the mind or so we blame it , puts us in a stage of choice... but when its totally an imagination , we can even fly , we can kill , we can rule , we can conquer , we can create , we can destroy.... how thin is it a line between being awake and asleep between reality and dreaming...

maybe God created this little illusion called a dream so as to motivate those weaklings in life , tho they know they would never ever subdue any of his dreams but still be a happy one while dreaming... like those captivating loan offers to buy a million dollar home or car in easy installments.... tho u know u need to kill to clear it...

sometimes its more fun and relieving to live a life shrouded with dream than to face nasty realism and finally end up in a heap of earth...

dream rich , eat rich , sleep rich... else u r gonna have to face it all my brother... every aspect opposite to something called the "promised life"...

the sound of death...

when words fail... when your mind fails every single emotion it has ever known to express your happiness or grief... truly , happiness can be compromised to its depth as such , coz we ve never ever thought about comparing the depths of sorrow and joy ever.. coz , joy takes over our minds in seconds... and we say it gets over in seconds... but think about sorrow , and we say its like ever lasting...

since joy is such a futile thing in life... a short lived aspect... lets discover a little about grief... when u are totally grieved ... totally ridden of every single element of joy... when ur mouth fumbles for words... when u strive to get some new word to express your sadness...

out comes some strange noise with tears.. strange noises that you realize are a soothing to your mind... if not reach that stage you cannot breathe further... and u make noises of the unheard...

NOTICE THEM... they are musical notes.... they are terrible insightful notes... they are decibels your mind is shouting out.... screaming out... in the highest of all frequencies... your heart leaps out in total shudder... the pounding itself makes you numb... but the screeching noise u make... is a divine composition... an exquisite blend of total musical divinity... a meager shrill converted totally into a complete musical bliss...

and its enjoyed in tears with love of departing from you , the love that one is gong to miss being with you... the peace and joy being with u ... its the sound that one hears finally ... at the last stage... the last journey one commences from worldly beings... a journey that never has a return ticket... a journey that one would always yearn for a turn about...

that sound my friend... that in sighting music is nothing but the... sound of death , the final ballad with no words n composition , but with the earnest of all of energy screamed out of your breath... thats one eternal soothing , to the pain one realizes when he passes away...

the sound of death...

to the terror darlings... or terrorlings...

u planted fire in my bosom...
u split my children into pieces...
but i engulfed u with love...
u now cannot accept the fact it was u...

u bloodshed my strong keepers...
u too my innocent children...
but i made u valiant to deceit ur advisers...
u now cannot refuse coz u r dead...

u took innocent lives...
u injured irrelevant...
but now they forgive u...
u now cannot forsake their act of love...

u held my by death...
u stilled my children...
but now , we are aware...
we will not wait... we will not take it anymore...
but will fight... fight to your end...
to the root cause... until ur flame is busted...
until my children say...

this is my mother... and she protects us...
coz , we are born brothers...
in love , in love alone...
and we shall prevail...
for ever and ever...

national anthem...

this is my country... this is my India...
no matter what i lose for her... i will not lose her...
thats the spirit instilled in me , while i was born

while i was growing , while i am what i am and while i am what i will be...

you can come , you can relish me , you can love me...
but u cannot conquer me , for i am a mother , a mother to all ,
but when u deceit your love , i prefer my good son...
my spirit is within him , i will never forsake him...

when you put me to flame... my sons douse me with tears...
more painful than you flame , makes me soothing...
my bosom is for all , but not for you who trample your beliefs...
for u know not what ur belief is....

i am a mother , and i will nourish care and nurture my children...
for i am not a mother who was created
but a mother who was incarnated...
as an image in every child born in my labor...

i am that mother , a country that takes it all...
but never repays your evil ... but a mother who loves you
loves you for ur evil thoughts... to engulf you in love ,
thats my children who shroud you with love...

thats my children who shroud you with love...
for your valiant failure in faith...
and its me who protects them under my veil of love...

i am... mother india....

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

short temper... how short is it

Those who have known me over the years , would know me as a very short tempered person... Never used to think about consequences but when adversities strike me , my only motive would be to finish it once and for all... But for the past five years , I have been practicing to control my temper and also learning to forgive people...

How long can a person take on false accusations , back stabbings , filthy abuse... I believe the line breaks when it comes to a stage when the lives of your loved ones are in threat... For over 2 years I have been taking in the absolute nonsense of a third rated neighbor and each time I used to tell my self and pray for his forgiveness and for his early realization if his mistakes...

Home is heaven on earth for everyone... Imagine when you would have to wake up to worst of worst tamil filthy words... A stage where you should be the only one who should adjust , bowing down to a criminal only because he has man power and some political powers... Is this the life one would be thriving and slogging day after day for...

Talk about police and legal actions... When the cops come for investigations , they see the truth and talk in favor of us , but at the police station when this scum bag whispers in their ears for a few seconds... we become the accused... I now realize , middle class life is the worst and most cursed of all life segments on this earth...

To survive today , its not enough to have a hefty bank balance... you need political influence and also the police to favor you... Its a scene where justice can be bought , a tyranny where law keepers succumb to such malignant pressures... There is no point in having a major media to back you either... Finally it all scales down to how many politicians and goondas you have in your pocket...

It was a disgusting scene to get down to the range of physical attacks when I lost control... How much more can one take especially when you hear typical third rated abuses from a mouth that is totally unworthy of its purpose... Even worse when its your family that is the target... Beating up a person and winning sure makes one proud... But when you see the typical society life style of people just standing and watching the scene , makes u feel totally disgusting...

Its such events in life that makes one forget all values and principles in life and end up paying up a heavy damage...

Dear all ... life is never ever sweet as we see... even if we refrain from evil , it always follows us as a shadow , and it preys on us at a totally unexpected moment... At that moment , one will realize how worthless , how weak , how insecure we are... Cautious is a weak word and it very well might be ignored in our lives... Many of us may have lived an unworthy life... but when you die... dont you think you died for some worthy cause... if a common mans life is not even worth that... I have no more words to say...

Thursday, February 4, 2010

ask and it shall be given unto u

for those in faith...

we all know that , all we need to do is ask our Maker and he shall provide us. Very often we are let down... and the only satisfying answer we ever sought is... "not worthy of it"... but man has this deliberate mind which satisfies with some equivalent blessing which actually is a trillion worthwhile than what we ask for , but not even close to what we coveted for...

Christianity says nothing but , pray for anything and everything , at anytime ... all u need to do is ask... well while asking for yourself , conditions do apply , but there is one leverage when praying for someone else , despite the conditions , there is a free entry level gift for all... peace of mind...

forget religion... try it once... shut ur thoughts for a moment , and think well about others... think in the depths of your heart ... you would notice a never experienced calm in your mind... a feeling which defines ecstasy... a point at which ur entire body feels weightless... a point at which u realize , ur self existence alone is nothing but a co existence is every mans purpose and right in this world...

true , we may doubt our desirable wanting during our prayers , but its always a truth and belief , when we do or think good for someone it happens and we have been witness many times , especially our enemies... but imagine if you are in a critical situation , a situation with another individual who faces a situation which forces u to want to see them in a better position ... a position despite the problem haunting them... and u r forced with or without ur consent to pray for them... and u get an insight as a solution to their problem... what would u do... would u just say it out... or would u subdue your self to your doubts...

we have made our minds so complex enough that we can never determine anything for ourselves... nor can we even decide something for the help less... we have pushed ourselves away ... far away from the divine powers that we have no clue if what we do is even what we are meant to do...

some people even fear that if we pray good for others , the good within us leave... no one can even measure the good or evil in anyone... look into every day of each ones life , you would notice one thing... the more u attribute urself to others welfare , the very first symptom u notice is the peace , the real meaning of peace is filled in our hearts... you may even be able to throw away all further adversities , coz u did something good for someone...

its always better to do something good for others than to perish away stuffing stress onto ones own life...

empty vessels eh!!!

a friend of mine today told me with much enthusiasm ... he was totally idle for over 2 minutes and it was bliss according to him... since it was all of a sudden i tot about tamil comedian vadivelu and his comedy strike in a movie about placing a bet for being totally idle for over an hour... for my current situation while i am sitting half the day jobless , i tot about my bloody self to within that fraction of a second...

my friend was too serious about what he said , n i asked him what he meant... thats when he told me about some mentors who had been to his college and during a common question hour in his class... it seems the mentors had asked the students... what would u like to do in life... when all said ambitious answers... my friend asked me if i could guess what he said , being a friend of mine for sometime i tot it should be something wild... truly his answer was not only wild... but made me think for a while and in depth... his answer was "eat well and sleep well"...

do we even realize what it means to "eat well n sleep well"... a heavy lunch or dinner and a drunken sleep is not what is meant over here... do what is right... help the needy... earn what is rightful , do no evil , think no evil , smile , relish your food and sleep tight...

how many of us are able to do this now a days... i tot my drunken sleep was more than all i required... but today i made myself think and all i realize is... amidst all of life frolics if i am able to still convince my self to sound sleep , and if i enjoy 25 % of it... it really means that there is more to life , and it is possible to get a peaceful sleep , only if have a watch over our actions through out the day...

in spite of my principles ... never covet not just another mans wife , but even a girl friend , never cheat , never steal n so on... i ve realized that i still have a lot more disturbances in life... i ve started to realize them , and the best we , tho i chose it long time ago , i think i should practice it more... speak out... but speak out to trusted people... else vent it out like in blogs... you would notice kilos and kilos of unwanted burden just flow out of you...

today man has complicated life so much , that we dont even know how disgusting we have made ourselves... but a simple act of thinking for a minute can reflex our entire life in seconds , refresh them... dump the detestable parts of life... just throw them away... they are not supposed to be within us... and dont you worry such things have no life and are not supposed to haunt u and they will not...

speak up people... never stuff yourself... its no good... travel light is not just for vacations... but also for a journey called life...

a terrible insight...

ever since i realized that i would be in the media field , mostly into advertising , copy writing and story writing... I had the craziest and scariest fear fill me. My style of writing or for the matter my daily articulation itself is plain words , raw topics and straight on the face. I fear least when it comes to people out side my family. But then I always had and i still have a fear when it comes to family reading my posts or comments online.

I was branded a shy and backward child in school , my folks and family graded me as a silent person who never voices an opinion and finally the whole of my world looks down upon every single i take , to be more precise , actions that have done one the adverse side in my life is all that my folks could always remember. My attachment with the love affair thing has always landed me in dire disasters and I ve never discussed private topics or even violent ones at home , tho common and current affairs are a common discussion at the dinner table.

Most of my stories have scenes of passion , sometimes violence and I was branded by a film maker to the peak for my description of passionate scenes. I feel elated every time some one credits my work , but the very thought of my folks reading or seeing them gives me the jolt of life. Most of my writings happen to be critic sited , and sometimes i am forced to use the f&b words of english in the most grandeur. I still have no clue if my works would ever be accepted at home. Thanks to the zero encouragement i receive at home , else i would have had to get an approval from them for all of my works.

True , the bravest of men may fear the slightest prick of syringes needle. Family is still an immense bonding emotion when it comes to being brought up in India. But I would be more than glad to trash all of my works for one adorable and warm hug from folks at home rather than the reputation and fame my works may bring me. After all , if it weren't for them , I wouldn have learned aspects of love and care. Its a free of cost experience for one and all in this world.

Now I realize why i fumble when i see a member of my family in any of the audience i ve anchored. Silly i know , but still wondering if i should fight this fear or not , coz its a wonderful and wild feeling to own the world but submit as nothing to your family's love. Guess there is nothing greater than that...

isnt lust a sin...

"Thou Shall not Covet"

A sinful commandment , I call it sinful , for just one reason. The world is filled with so many things one may stand in awe at. Adam had only on thing to lust for , a tree and a few apples. But that isnt the situations today. As if making beautiful creations , we now have pageants , events and a set of people just to spread that beauty all across the world , along with the internet and other mediums , it comes straight into your homes. We are supposed to look at it , gulp down and forget. Tricky huh , everything is done with a purpose. If everything was made to order , true , creations are in order , but if the greatest creation of all was made perfect , then the Creator would be bored of watching everyone walk around happy. Wink wink...

I found of late that i covet a lot , i covet the beautiful and blissful nature that is given to us free of cost. I covet the wonderful talents that is hidden within each one of us , and i covet more the people who have realized their talents and know how to use them rightfully. I am madly craving for the beautiful voices of singers , how wonderful would it be if u could walk in the rain , singing and appealing to the beautifully drenched earth . How graceful would it be to sing your love to your loved one.

How colorful could we make the world , if we could paint or sculpt like those blessed ones. How happy could we keep others if we could love each other like those who have already set an example before. Wouldnt it be absolutely stunning if a multitude follows your righteous ways to glory. How peaceful would it be if you family would love to see you every day happy and safe back home.

The words of praise come in perfect definition only when heavenly creations are in perfect harmony with mans daily life ventures. Else it is all another wasted day of life.

When u realize , that you were also made special , that you are also counted in the numbers of the earth , that you were also filled with all the talents in life like all others , when u realize and choose those wonderful talents to make your life more beautiful , it immediately reflects on people nearest and dearest to you , making them search their inner self multiplying your single effort over a multitude , and thats how a family becomes a wonderful place to live which again is shared over n over again to everyone.

Realize your worth , realize your talents , you would never have to covet anything , you would make yourself deserving of those you covet for...

its just sound...

"the human voice is the most expressive instrument known to man and if its used correctly can evolve an enormous amount of emotion" yanni on nathan pacheco's voice..."

Isnt it amazing what the Creator has done , the most amazing gift of all creations in this world , an invisible commodity to communicate , and communicate clearly. Am talking about our voices... As always the very best of all creations in this world... love for example , even sound was made invisible. Truly , brilliant creations are to be handled with care , and thats why its invisible , else would we ever think before making use of such an absolute form of creation when we speak each time. Wouldnt it have been awesome , if we could delete what was said. If u possess this beautiful creation called a voice , then u are bound with conditions , true with all exceptional creations. A simple condition called , think before you speak.

Its also wild when u think that its the same organs involved in the delivery of some of the best harmonic recitals in the world , is also responsible for the filthiest and gravest of abuses in every man's life. Isnt it wonderful to hear a beautiful voice , the rendering of various emotions makes each word another heavenly recital. Alongside isnt it sad when we hear the same gift being disrespected and when we hear the filthiest of filth being vomited out as slain words in the society. Of course , it wouldnt be from the same mouths anyway.

The same mouth that once says I love You , may also be the one to provoke a plan to harm someone. The same mouth once was a motivation could be one to way lead another time. Looking at these simple daily activities in life , its proof enuf that no man or any creature of any form could have created this system called life. Bound by simple rules , but looking into the deep complications today , its truly a God who is behind all this wonderful and mysterious takes in life.

When all were gifted with a voice , the maker still made a few special , He muted them , why because He wants the others to know , its possible to create the entire universe likewise too... but how many realize and live a life thanking a healthy body and peaceful mind.

Break down complicated situations in life to simple ones , you would notice , how many definitions make each day of your life , even without your knowledge.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

is love blind ???

The greatest illusion in the world ever is that , we name a person called satan for all evil and he has always stunned us by his act of non existence...

Many people have often sang , praised , penned poems about the greatest and invisible force that binds the whole world together "Love"... but isnt it strange that sometimes , this same emotion has had a drastic set back in life. The mere act of making a baby , biological sex , is coined as "making love"... Right from the time of creation , its been love that is driving everything forward... If that very creation itself is out of love , then where did the exact opposite of it originate...

Almost every time a baby is born , its truly an amazing procedure that one goes through and so is the same all over the world. When each one is born out of love , how is it possible that such an adverse act of hatred cultivate. Blame it on upbringing , blame it on society , blame it on anything...

It is from this same form of reproduction out of love that we have extreme characters like terrorists , rapists , murderers , thieves and many more...

Its funny that such innocent babies born out love , turn wicked as they grow , but when its time for them to have their own kids , they do it out of love... Again funny how people fall in love head over heels... wished if they could die for each other and out of the blue end up killing each other...

To achieve anything good is really difficult , but takes only seconds to tarnish the same... Y should it be so... wouldnt it ve been wonderful if it was the other way around... good things are easier to get and bad things are difficult... At the rate the world is advancing towards negative joy , i really doubt if there would be any love from the mother to breast feed her baby...

Human affection is a thin line between sex and love... one is the peak of pleasure on a single dose that lasts for a few minutes... where as the other is a daily dose with mild pleasure that is to last for a life time... its when this relation is upset that we tend to forget about all other aspects of love ... parental love , brotherly , sisterly , strangers ,... all these get affected just because some dont realize that thin line which they should ve marked as a life line...

It would take a God to set things back to normality , no spiritual guides or gurus can ever uplift mans present system of life...

realization...

A stage of realization is always preceded by a mistake...

We have all at one point or the other used the word "realize"... but i just realized that its mostly after some mistake or something that's not right. Spiritual gurus and likewise people would often use this term to let one understand and realize his true purpose in life.

If we could all realize or better said , if one could analyze and confirm that his actions are right , i am very much sure that the word "doubt" and "disbelief" would become obsolete. If we carefully notice each step that we take in life , we can classify them into voluntary and involuntary actions. Voluntary is steps that we take with our full conscience... like a simple act of ordering a favorite dish in a particular restaurant. Involuntary meaning , actions that come out of practice , or those actions that are engraved and lie dormant in our sub conscious mind. For example the immediate response of steering a car to the perfect side in case of an emergency , or something which many people are getting better at now a days , driving with one hand , cell phone on the other , and shifting the gear right across ones lap.

But at the outset , when it comes to making some decision , important decisions require more thoughts while trivial ones may not require , but still at that point of making a decision , all that we can do is just analyze and we make a probable confirmation of the out come. If at all we could pronounce that , that particular decision is the best , thats what i call a perfect realization , which am sure none can do in his plain human form. Sure there could be tricks and many are too good at guessing a probability. Am sure even the best of doctors can never give a 100 % guarantee over a similar surgery that he has been conducting over the years. No wonder medical science is totally against a 100 % guarantee... Hospitals are one place where people play God and at the same time make patients realize how much they have missed out on their Faith in God.

Many a times in life , we have all faced situations where we end up doing something that we never expected to end up in a mess... School days would definitely be an example... A simple act of throwing across a compass would end up with some one bleeding and being accused of attempted murder. An accusation which is to early for even the child to understand its depth , and by the time he knows about it , am sure he would ve realized that someone has sparked the wicked within him.

If we could run back our memories in life , we would all have incidents that we would like to sometimes even erase from our memories... and the more we try to remove it , the more we realize that its engraved within us.

True that realizing ones actions is a good exercise to steer our character to betterment , but there would be no point in realizing once its too late...

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

when legends pass...

All through my life , i have heard from my friends , family and colleagues , nothing but accolades towards the malayalam film industry. True , like all other associations there are rifts going on within them now a days.

Many technicians , new comers , musicians and others have told me from the depths of their heart , how much they wish to work in at least one malayalam movie. This is one industry in India that doesnt determine the size of a movie with the budget , but the other way around.

Most brilliant music compositions in south india have originated from malayalam. Scripts that have had the audience in splits or in total tears. Movies that were taken as examples for real life experiences. Numerous thoughts for daily life. Real fans , who love their idols so much , but were never crazy enough to do stiffs just for the sake of fame.

On the whole this is one industry that has direct access to every malayalis home. But there is one draw back in this industry , unlike any other.

Each member of this industry is the real definition of the word "UNIQUE". If one star passes away , there is no replacement for him or her. You may notice how in all other languages , younger stars fight a race to reach their superstars positions , imitating their styles , there by making them no different from the other. But you can never ever see such a rift in malayalam.

Each actor totally had a self made image , and a unique style. Another advantage of malayalam actors is that , they fit into any kind of characters. It can be very well seen that , in malayalam you can see a villain doing a comedy role in another movie and later a character role in another. Such is the talent quotient of malayalam.

10 months and malayalam industry is paying a heavy toll losing 4 sons. renowned director and story writer lohithadas , actors rajan p dev , murali and now cochin haneefa. For those who have seen these actors at work , you will definitely know the core loss i am talking about. Not one of them had a similar style like the other , nor does anyone else have a style of acting like the other.

Those roles done by each actor was uniquely carved for themselves and no one can ever replicate them. With almost all senior actors bidding farewell , I pray that this industry doesnt loose its charm but breed more talents like it has always done before...

divide and rule

Divide and rule was the Britishers final approach to maintain a running government for pre independent India. The whole strategy was to prevent small power groups from joining hands with larger ones , or to break existing bigger hands to smaller ones , so that no one can break the english code of ruling India.

Well they started the policy and we chased them out standing not as just small groups of tribals or cannibals. The whole country stood together and that is when we could achieve what we call Independence today. Am sure one time or the other in our lives we would really have to thought it would have been better if the english hadn't left. Someone even would like to have hitelr to rule india for a few years. Sometimes an emergency should be declared.

We have finally become something of a situation like when a teenager is home alone for the first time. Do everything but never ever get caught , cover up everything. We know we have terror within the country. We know in broad day light who our standing enemies are. We know who is corrupt , we know each and every single soul who has driven his sword of cowardice through our hearts , yet we still protect them.

We have a population that if stood as one single army can drive away our neighboring enemies to their graves. We have the brains to take down any threatening technology , coz we would have some way or the other had our own people associated even with its making. We have the freedom to drive around the city when and how ever we like.

Yet , we still love to create havoc. True its not the common man but the politicians who initiate a partition of a state or city. The very idea of separate state or city means grabbing hold of individual powers , by which that particular state can be a threat to neighboring states too. As if our present neighboring threats arent enough.

I am pretty much sure that India has the most number of patriotism based movies made. These movies if taken on a positive note (leaving behind the humor) is a reminder for us , of how we reached our present stage of well being. Human lives have been lost for this present day. But no one would every value the number of deaths until each one loses a life.

This country has always been envied for its rich natural beauty , culture , faith and family values. God knows for how many days will all these credits last. With the senas fighting a miserable and losing battle for maharashtra , down south the telungana issue. If each state would propose to division am sure we would have to change our political map to OLD INDIA & NEW INDIA.

No matter what our chosen political clowns do , the common man is still burdened with heavily priced expenditure for daily life and no one bothers about that. All one wants is power and more power. To do what , thats the question.

Come what may , there was and always is an impression of a beautiful mother land that we were all born in and no matter what anyone tries , she will be the same in Indian minds.

Jai Hind...

why only rahman could win ???

For the past few years , during my venture in the media field , I ve had the opportunity to meet movie personals , musicians , technicians and many other people related to the entertainment industry. Ever since A R Rahman has been making raves in India and abroad , any discussion about him with anyone would finally come to one concluding topic , how come only he could achieve so much. Hard work , dedication , creativity , passion and much more common topics. Am sure most other music directors have also had their share of struggle before making a mark in the industry. Then what is it that makes him out standing.

I would say the following. For those who have read about arr , am sure u would ve come across 3 words , in any of his description. 3 words that is very common but forgotten by most. 1.God , 2.Mother (family) 3.Humble.

I still remember ilayaraja , during his peak of glory distributing holy ash to his clients and co workers. This is where most celebrities fail. When u find ur self at the peak and declare urself as God , u just forgot that the world is not as small as u think. True raja is a legend too , but y is it that one of key board players could almost have him faded out.

Once u hit a stage in life where u think u have it all , that is a stage of saturation , u better remind urself , u ve initiated your self destruction. Great men never are contempt with what they have achieved , they r happy but they will go for more , n thats how one conquers the world. Many politicians have tried their best to spread the tamil spirit all over the world , but here is one little man , with his talent , with one single work has even hollywood fall in love for tamil compositions.

I never believe in being declared the BEST... Its always better to be in the comparative stage , than being in the superlative stage.

Arr was and is always praised for his simple method of life , his affection towards his family , his mother in particular , his faith in god and finally his humble attitude is what has determined his altitude. I was always smiling when arr said that during his first composition , he had switched off all the lights in his studio , coz he was shy. How many more people r out there in the entertainment business who can claim themselves to be a shy person after hitting the spotlight...

You may have everything , but i have mother , that itself shows the well bringing of a man. each year he visits a mosque in tamil nadu , no matter where he is , but on a particular day he arrives there. u may have talents , u may have a wonderful family , money to buy the world , but everything perishes when u lack faith.

i was also told that , he purchases simple suits from one particular shop , no matter how big an event he has to attend , but it still the same place of purchase and nothing funky or something to catch the media eye.

also comes to my mind when raja had his select few singers and no one new would ever possible be able to enter the music world in tamilnadu. if not for arr am sure most young singers today would ve perished without even a trace... am sure almost every single singer in india would today be in debt to arr one way or the other.

grow and let grow... never every try to fill urself on others labor.

here is a simple man , with simple thoughts , simple and basic values in life , conquering the world , hope his life would also be taken as an example for better living...

jay ho...