gods must be crazy....

ha ha ha... i begin this laughin at myself...

the deciding factor of any country... the middle class... eh... when to gods created man , the created man and woman... and for fun sake , the created those inbetween... y ... they wanted to experiment what will happen...

so is the life of a middle class being... all experiments on u... anyone can use u , anyone can trial u , anyone can kill u... but nothing wil happen to those who destroy us... the high class can pervail for ever , the poor have the sentiments... what about the majority ... what about us...

look at ur middle class life... every day of ur life is a struggle... ur job , ur family , ur friends , ur enemies , ur emplyers , ur society , no one bothers about u... as long as u pay up ur commitments u r free... but still the trial is always on u... what do we have to defend ourselves... the least u can do is sit online on ur computer and blog... and who is reading it... ur fellow beings who suffer equivalent or more than u....

cursed are we middle class families... we are good for nothing.... biting our teeth , clenching our fists we ve always taken everything that comes are way , and we stop at a point , where we think we r futile... there will be no change for this situation... no one cares about us... no one will ever...

then what do we do... the major population that decides and takes in all crap of daily life... are we sure our family members are safe everytime they go out... are secure about our hard earned wealth... are we even recognised for our works to the society... are we happy at the end of any day in life... do we live in peace... do we have any represenatative...

keep in mind....we are like experimental rats in a laboratory... as long as we lvie , we are of worth... but on the day of test... not even us nor the one who does it knows if we will survive or not... and here we are still ready to volunteer... why , coz our limbs are cut off... our thoughts are cut off... our voices are dried out... there would be no one... but no matter what , this sect of life will continue for ever...

i am sure tho u plan for ur kids , u know it for sure its a 50 - 50 chance... so what do we do... how do we secure ourselves... how do we show our presence... how do we prove our existence as not just material but as human life forms.... what do we do...

simple... struggle everyday , think u ve it all and go to sleep... we will never change... or like in the movie "ten commandments"... it would take more than a man , but a God to save us... sad , sad , very sad is our lives...

u call it life eh...

be it the church... or the hindu scriptures... or the insight of mohammad...

we are all told by some force or the other we choose to be our guiding light , how to live life...

crap... all they say is love and forgive... for the bloody complexity today that man lives... how tolerant can one be... how tolerant... enough to jus wait and see the end of the line expecting miracles , but losing dignity , respect and loved ones for the sake so called man made pressures..

how long is this going to be... how many times do we jus budge to things happenin around us.. how many times do we compromise in a day... is this the promised life in each religion.. atheists stay away , i have another theory for u...

life was meant to be happy ... u love and u get loved... thats what life was about... when did killing and cheating become a reason for living... how could one accept it as a reason for living... believe... a common man also today resorts to killing and other sins... y ... for one reason... he needs to survive... he could be all means finish off his enemies and walk away... but as long as there is a quotient called family... even a single member... remember how much a risk are we taking...

But is the risk worth it... some way or the other , the political system comes into play with every man... dont ever give that excuse , i dont vote i dont care... keep in mind... they are all over u... they can come anytime... any way... pathetic i say... sad is the life of a commoner... where we decide the government and we still get kicked out.. .

how long will we go through this... tho people realize this... even if we form a group that would lead the elections... am sure we would also be corrupt...

BUT
THERE IS HOPE...

read the lines... "FOR THE PEOPLE , BY THE PEOPLE" thats enuf...

recollect one instant in ur life where the government has let u down... believe me... all of us have one... now tell me , can we form something worthwhile...

when the world is talkin about saving indian tigers , haiti , tsunami , and other criterias .... think about the basic value of human living... anyone thinking , what we can do...

this should be the beginning... we can do something... i BELIEVE we can... start it...

dream... thats ur only haven...

when random thinking , makes you take your time... something that most of us... though we do not realize it... our idle minds are so easily carried away... with no rules.. with no borders... with no expectations... with no conclusions... but we still love it...

why coz ... its just our imaginations... its true we can imagine what ever we want... about anything , anyone... but its a trillion times restricted when it comes to reality...

while we imagine , we can do it any way , forget our own initiated imaginations , true all our imaginations have a wee little to what we think on purpose... but when we do so in reality , u know how much we curse our selves and our mind which always keeps suggesting in the negative...

every time we want to do something... the mind or so we blame it , puts us in a stage of choice... but when its totally an imagination , we can even fly , we can kill , we can rule , we can conquer , we can create , we can destroy.... how thin is it a line between being awake and asleep between reality and dreaming...

maybe God created this little illusion called a dream so as to motivate those weaklings in life , tho they know they would never ever subdue any of his dreams but still be a happy one while dreaming... like those captivating loan offers to buy a million dollar home or car in easy installments.... tho u know u need to kill to clear it...

sometimes its more fun and relieving to live a life shrouded with dream than to face nasty realism and finally end up in a heap of earth...

dream rich , eat rich , sleep rich... else u r gonna have to face it all my brother... every aspect opposite to something called the "promised life"...

the sound of death...

when words fail... when your mind fails every single emotion it has ever known to express your happiness or grief... truly , happiness can be compromised to its depth as such , coz we ve never ever thought about comparing the depths of sorrow and joy ever.. coz , joy takes over our minds in seconds... and we say it gets over in seconds... but think about sorrow , and we say its like ever lasting...

since joy is such a futile thing in life... a short lived aspect... lets discover a little about grief... when u are totally grieved ... totally ridden of every single element of joy... when ur mouth fumbles for words... when u strive to get some new word to express your sadness...

out comes some strange noise with tears.. strange noises that you realize are a soothing to your mind... if not reach that stage you cannot breathe further... and u make noises of the unheard...

NOTICE THEM... they are musical notes.... they are terrible insightful notes... they are decibels your mind is shouting out.... screaming out... in the highest of all frequencies... your heart leaps out in total shudder... the pounding itself makes you numb... but the screeching noise u make... is a divine composition... an exquisite blend of total musical divinity... a meager shrill converted totally into a complete musical bliss...

and its enjoyed in tears with love of departing from you , the love that one is gong to miss being with you... the peace and joy being with u ... its the sound that one hears finally ... at the last stage... the last journey one commences from worldly beings... a journey that never has a return ticket... a journey that one would always yearn for a turn about...

that sound my friend... that in sighting music is nothing but the... sound of death , the final ballad with no words n composition , but with the earnest of all of energy screamed out of your breath... thats one eternal soothing , to the pain one realizes when he passes away...

the sound of death...

to the terror darlings... or terrorlings...

u planted fire in my bosom...
u split my children into pieces...
but i engulfed u with love...
u now cannot accept the fact it was u...

u bloodshed my strong keepers...
u too my innocent children...
but i made u valiant to deceit ur advisers...
u now cannot refuse coz u r dead...

u took innocent lives...
u injured irrelevant...
but now they forgive u...
u now cannot forsake their act of love...

u held my by death...
u stilled my children...
but now , we are aware...
we will not wait... we will not take it anymore...
but will fight... fight to your end...
to the root cause... until ur flame is busted...
until my children say...

this is my mother... and she protects us...
coz , we are born brothers...
in love , in love alone...
and we shall prevail...
for ever and ever...

national anthem...

this is my country... this is my India...
no matter what i lose for her... i will not lose her...
thats the spirit instilled in me , while i was born

while i was growing , while i am what i am and while i am what i will be...

you can come , you can relish me , you can love me...
but u cannot conquer me , for i am a mother , a mother to all ,
but when u deceit your love , i prefer my good son...
my spirit is within him , i will never forsake him...

when you put me to flame... my sons douse me with tears...
more painful than you flame , makes me soothing...
my bosom is for all , but not for you who trample your beliefs...
for u know not what ur belief is....

i am a mother , and i will nourish care and nurture my children...
for i am not a mother who was created
but a mother who was incarnated...
as an image in every child born in my labor...

i am that mother , a country that takes it all...
but never repays your evil ... but a mother who loves you
loves you for ur evil thoughts... to engulf you in love ,
thats my children who shroud you with love...

thats my children who shroud you with love...
for your valiant failure in faith...
and its me who protects them under my veil of love...

i am... mother india....

short temper... how short is it

Those who have known me over the years , would know me as a very short tempered person... Never used to think about consequences but when adversities strike me , my only motive would be to finish it once and for all... But for the past five years , I have been practicing to control my temper and also learning to forgive people...

How long can a person take on false accusations , back stabbings , filthy abuse... I believe the line breaks when it comes to a stage when the lives of your loved ones are in threat... For over 2 years I have been taking in the absolute nonsense of a third rated neighbor and each time I used to tell my self and pray for his forgiveness and for his early realization if his mistakes...

Home is heaven on earth for everyone... Imagine when you would have to wake up to worst of worst tamil filthy words... A stage where you should be the only one who should adjust , bowing down to a criminal only because he has man power and some political powers... Is this the life one would be thriving and slogging day after day for...

Talk about police and legal actions... When the cops come for investigations , they see the truth and talk in favor of us , but at the police station when this scum bag whispers in their ears for a few seconds... we become the accused... I now realize , middle class life is the worst and most cursed of all life segments on this earth...

To survive today , its not enough to have a hefty bank balance... you need political influence and also the police to favor you... Its a scene where justice can be bought , a tyranny where law keepers succumb to such malignant pressures... There is no point in having a major media to back you either... Finally it all scales down to how many politicians and goondas you have in your pocket...

It was a disgusting scene to get down to the range of physical attacks when I lost control... How much more can one take especially when you hear typical third rated abuses from a mouth that is totally unworthy of its purpose... Even worse when its your family that is the target... Beating up a person and winning sure makes one proud... But when you see the typical society life style of people just standing and watching the scene , makes u feel totally disgusting...

Its such events in life that makes one forget all values and principles in life and end up paying up a heavy damage...

Dear all ... life is never ever sweet as we see... even if we refrain from evil , it always follows us as a shadow , and it preys on us at a totally unexpected moment... At that moment , one will realize how worthless , how weak , how insecure we are... Cautious is a weak word and it very well might be ignored in our lives... Many of us may have lived an unworthy life... but when you die... dont you think you died for some worthy cause... if a common mans life is not even worth that... I have no more words to say...